I'm awkward sometimes...  EXTREMELY awkward.
I've embarrassed myself...  AND my friends.
And I've fkkd up...  A LOT.

I mean, I've reeeally done some awkward, embarrassing, fkkd up shht.

And I am absolutely certain that I will unwittingly, but characteristically, re-offend.

I'm already cringing...

"Alone, one’s suffering only deepens. Human beings need to be with and among other human beings. Engagement with others forges our character and enriches us."  Daisaku Ikeda

Happy birthday, Dad!  My REAL dad.  I love and miss you so much and I'm chanting that one day I will find you again and you will let me take care of you.  Life has been eventful with continuous ups and downs, and the only thing missing now, is you.  I love you daddy.  I'm chanting that you're alive and healthy, and on your way to me.  Please take care, I will always love you.  ~ Tiny

"Lies are truly frightening, because they not only deceive others but also destroy one’s own humanity. "  Daisaku Ikeda

Tonight I told my step-father that he should have killed himself, and I meant it.  I was not Buddhist-like, at all.  With my understanding of karma, I know what the karmic implications are.  As I strive to accomplish my own human revolution, I will continue to move forward and not allow this event to set me back.  I am sharing this tonight, because I feel that there are probably many of you out there who have felt some similar, hateful equivalent, and I just want to let you know, you are not alone.

I am NOT sorry.

Vlog?  I guess that's what it'll be. Either way, I will un-apologetically post my story.  Those who are, were, or want to be (or don't) involved in my life and have anything to say about it, please, let me know.  You know where to find me.

"The courage not to bow to pressure, the courage to stand alone, the courage to maintain one’s determination, the courage to look deep into one’s heart and confront one’s own cowardice and arrogance, the courage to challenge difficulties—those who possess this kind of courage are true victors."  Daisaku Ikeda

Lots of change in the last few months, so much that I almost forgot about my blog.  I've decided to create an autobiography of sorts, via recorded video.  I don't know exactly how it will come along, but I can guarantee it's coming.

"There is no one as strong as a person whose heart is always filled with gratitude."  Daisaku Ikeda

I am grateful everyday for the life I have lived and words cannot express my gratitude for the people and experiences I have had the fortune to encounter along this path.  Although I have burned some bridges and closed some doors, I know that I have built more than I have destroyed and I will continue to do so until the day I die...  And according to my dreams, that day will come sometime after my 113th birthday.  See you soon...

My Dreams:

$500M Net Worth.  Age 113.  International World Peace Ambassador.

My Reality:
$0 Net Worth.  Age 38.  F/T Student, Entrepreneur, Unemployed.

My Mission:
Finding Fugly was the easy part... 

Buddhism Day by Day: Wisdom for Modern Life, Daisaku Ikeda